This is my third attempt now at this letter. I am going to assume that my first two were not received, or ended up becoming reindeer food or something. You see Santa what I had decided to ask you for this year was to meet a normal romantic partner to simply get to know. I know it sounds bizarre, but I figured you pulled it off in that Miracle on 45th Street movie. It is also Christmas time and you are Santa Claus and all, so I figured why not. I also know it must be pretty surprising that I would actually ask you for this since usually I am the one to run screaming from any sort of romantic relationship, particularly given my track record, and well frankly I am still trying to recover from the girl that fried chicken in my house. I figured if I asked for someone who was interested in getting to know one another in a slow way, maybe it would leave me a little bit less of a commitmentphob. While I do appreciate the attempt of the universe to put those in my path who cut and run first, I’m thinking there might be an eventual problem with that plan.
In this letter to you I spent a long time carefully wording exactly what I wanted from someone, down to every last detail, because as we all know you have to be careful what you put into the universe because it will come towards you. Yes, I am speaking from experience, and I can hear the giggling from the universe as I am typing this. I went to my meditation group yesterday and I realized why I have now rewritten this letter three times. Part of the group exercise was to look into a stranger’s eyes and give them a blessing. I did this exercise with two different people, and what I experienced was incredible. I had never felt so much love for someone that I knew nothing about. Let me explain this type of love, because people always assume when you say you love someone that you are falling hopelessly in romantic love with them, which isn’t what I felt. I felt a true unconditional love for this person that reached into both my humanity and theirs. To be honest with you it didn’t feel like my humanity and theirs, it felt like it was truly our humanity; I could feel the bond that we held with one another. They should have been strangers, but after the exercise I felt deeply connected to them. The leader of the group had mentioned to us that we are all one, and that is exactly what I felt. It got me thinking how much energy I spend asking the universe for what I want and I need, when really the word I doesn’t exist in our reality. When am I looking at a stranger, I am in fact looking at myself. While I could give you a list of this nice normal person that I’m interested in meeting, I know that isn’t really what I want for Christmas this year. That doesn’t mean to send me the opposite of that, just saying… Instead I want for each and every one of us to understand that we really are connected to one another. I want for everyone to be thankful for what we have, appreciate it and give gratitude every single day that we are here. Most of all I want for all of us to be brave enough to love unconditionally, fully and to give that love with no restraint. My bestie told me recently to experience love for even a brief moment is a special gift. She is right, it really is. To love someone whoever it is, someone you just met, a friend, lover, family member, is a special gift and nothing should ever get in the way of that, not fear, doubt, or anything else. We get one chance to live in the moment; there is no pause, no repeats, just right now. Live with integrity, live with honesty, live with no regrets, and above all else live with the courage to give unconditional love.
P.S. You might want to start feeding those reindeer a little bit more often since they appear to be digging into your letter piles. Just saying…